Wednesday, 21 May 2014

Rethinking Romance




I spent my teenage years giggling over soppy films with my friends and staying up late into the night reading romance novels. I knew exactly the sort of husband I wanted - a man with the faith of Clark from "Love Comes Softly", the dashing good looks of Mr Darcy from "Pride and Prejudice" and the looks of Freddie Prinze Jr (I was a child of the 90s!!) Of course he also had to have a great sense of humour and be really fun to hang out with! In fact, during one extremely boring chemistry lesson, my best friend and I drew up a "Perfect Man" list, with all the qualities we wanted in a husband. There were 14 things on my list!!

Now, before you start to laugh, I'll have you know that my husband is 12 of those 14 things! He may not have a Scottish accent (no.9) nor does he own a skateboard (I know, I know! It was a phase!!) but he is a fun-to-be-with, godly man who I happen to think is pretty darn handsome!!

But he ISN'T romantic. Not in the classical sense anyway. No flowers, no chocolates, no love letters (unless I suggest them, but that kinda spoils it doesn't it?!) He doesn't whisk me away on surprise dates, bring me breakfast in bed nor spend hours gazing into my eyes. And you know what, those things weren't even on my list because I assumed they were a GIVEN! My diet of romance novels and soppy films led me to assume that if he really loved me, all these things were automatic! As you can imagine, I was in for a shock!!

At first, it caused some tension in our marriage. He felt my expectations were unrealistic (they were!) and I felt like he didn't really love me (stoopid!) Then I realised that my husband DOES show his love for me in a zillion ways, I just refused to recognise it because they weren't what I expected. Like taking out the recycling. I HATE taking out the recycling! There is no reason for this - the bin is just a few steps from the door and most of the time it isn't even raining! But for some reason, I really dislike doing it and knowing that, I often go to do it only to find that my Hubby has already done it! Swoon! Last week I was at my wits end with our toddler (see previous post!) and Hubby offered to take care of the kids for the evening so I could run over to a friends house for a cup of tea and a giggle. It was a sacrifice for him to do this as he had a lot to do that evening, but he made the offer because he loves me and could see I needed a break. I could give you a ton of similar little examples similar to these!

We are just about to celebrate our 6th Wedding Anniversary and without doubt this is the greatest lesson I have learned - appreciate the little things and look for romance in unlikely places. It is hiding everywhere if only we can recognise it! Don't waste your time pining after Mr Darcy. Love the man you have and pay attention to the ways he expresses his love for you because they may not be what you expect!

And while I won't pretend that a bunch of roses wouldn't be a welcome surprise occasionally, I am feel so loved to have a man who makes me a cup of tea when I am tired, feeds the chickens when it is raining and swings by the shop for milk without complaining when I have forgotten (again!)

Tuesday, 13 May 2014

Potty Training Woes

It has been a few weeks since I have posted and the reason is potty training! My 2 1/2 year old boy has always been stubborn, but he really seems to have kicked it up a notch since we said goodbye to nappies! He decided himself that he would like to stop wearing nappies and start wearing pants. "Great!" I thought and armed with stickers, a reward chart and sweeties we embarked on potty training! I figured we would have a few days of mayhem and then he would get the hang of it....I was wrong!!

Potty training has turned into a power struggle. He knows when he needs to go, but he refuses to go on the potty or in the toilet. He will sit on both quite happily but hangs on until he gets up and straight away pees on the floor, gleefully crowing "It wasn't an accident!" I'm at my wits end.

The Lord has taught me a lot through these early years of motherhood, but I wasn't prepared for the humbling experience potty training would be. It has brought out the worst in me. First, impatience. Then selfishness, making it all about me. "Why should I have to clean this up AGAIN? You could just DO IT IN THE POTTY!!!" And finally, a bad temper which I thought I had conquered years ago. "ARGHHHHH NOT AGAIN!!" These have not been pretty things to face up to in myself, but I know yet again the Lord is teaching me through these experiences and challenging me to be patient and long-suffering as He is with me.

Absolutely as my wits end this morning, a verse popped into my head and was like balm to my soul. "My grace is sufficient for you" the Lord reminded me. Yes, God's grace is sufficient for all things.....even potty training!

That said, if anyone out there has any potty-training wisdom to offer, I would sure love to hear it!!!