Today was a new beginning for me.....my first day as just a stay at home mum! Until today I was a stay at home mum with a little sewing business on the side, but over the weekend I made the decision to put that on hold for the time being.
There are several reasons for this, not least of all obedience to God. Over the last few months, I have felt God speaking to me, telling me that this is not His will for me right now, that it is shifting my focus from where it needs to be in this season - my family.
With a two year old and a 6 month old baby, life is busy and time is at a premium. Maybe you have noticed that I haven't been around here much. My blog was pushed further and further down my to do list as any free time I had was absorbed my my business and the associated admin. My first love however will always be writing, so I'm glad to be back!
It strikes me how much like my two year old I am. When I ask him to get ready for bed or tidy his toys, he responds exactly as I did to God. You see, when I first began to be convicted that I should close my business - at least for now - my first response was to pretend I didn't hear God, like a two year old who sticks his fingers in his ears and hums! Then slowly I agreed "Ok God, but I just wanna launch this new range first and sign up for these few craft fairs and ......" You get the idea! I was just like my toddler who decides he needs to use the potty, get a cold drink, find a particular toy...ANYTHING to delay doing what he was told.
Now don't get me wrong, I am not saying that having a home business is somehow wrong for a stay at home mum, but just for me, just at this time, in this pre-school season, it is not the right thing. And although it knocked my pride a little to close it (cos now I no longer have the "and I also have my own business" comeback to throw at those who pity me/patronise me for being a stay at home mummy!) I was so exited this morning about all the opportunities I would have with my "extra" time - the things I would do with the kids, the places we would go, the surprises we would arrange for Daddy etc etc but already I have a feeling that it is just not going to turn out that way! Today on my first "slower" day, we had three different sets of people drop by to chat, the kids refused to sleep at naptime and honestly I got even less done than usual! But never mind! Tomorrow is a new day!!!
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